Does anyone else....

[demeter918]

avoid going on livejournal right after you post a fic?

I tend to post a fic and then run away, always hiding myself until a day or two later. It's an automatic reaction and no matter how much I try, I can't bear to check for responses (if there are any >_<) until much later because I get so twitchy in wondering how readers will see the fic. Sure, I always think that I don't particularly care (which I don't, by the way *eg*), that I'm writing for myself rather than anyone else, but it doesn't change the fact that feeling of dread.

I'd call it normal, but then I've never really discussed fanfiction in RL, so I can't tell if this is how others react to posting up fics too.

However...

On to yaoi/shonen-ai manga!

Ever since I read Love Mode, Bronze, and Cantalera, I've become absolutely obsessed with getting my hands on more BL (boys love) manga. I want more, more, more, more, MORE! But I'm not necessarily talking about hardcore yaoi manga. It might be the romantic in me, but I'd love to see first kisses, hugs in bed (oh yes, the from-behind-hug is my weakness), a kiss to the cheek, a kiss to the throat, a hand on a shoulder... ^______________________________^

I really love Bronze by the way. It's so, so, so pretty and angst-filled. But as usual, my adoration centered onto a peripheral character who's pretty much done a great deal of evil but who has such an absolutely tragic childhood and past that just... *wrinkles nose* Hirose and Akihito are introduced as snotty rich brats of their father, but as the story goes on (especially in V.6, 9, 10), I just couldn't help but fall in love with Hirose who's entire life is centered around whether he was unique or not, and Akihito, who grew so dependent on his brother, that the only person he loves is his brother. (I get vibes there) And that luscious bodyguard of his.

What I like about Love Mode is that it focuses on the relationship rather than the sex. Yes, all the boy-loving is hot, but I foolishly like relationship-building too. Especially when it starts out as a mentor-student relationship and blossoms to something much, much more. Kitten, anyone?

Naruto 224. Read it.

Does anyone know where I can get raw scans of the up-to-date Bleach chapters?

Comments

[memlu.livejournal.com]

Most of the time, I either avoid the fic or I check repeatedly, like a hawk (or somesuch), for the same agitated reason. I don't want to know if people hate it; I do want to know if people hate it; both; neither; ARGH MY BRAIN.

*makes note to check mentioned manga series*

[demeter918.livejournal.com]

You can find "Love Mode" at Sakura-Crisis (http://www.sakura-crisis.net). It's an 11-volume series up to v. 8.2 on the site, and I think they're fairly regular in updating. >_< It's one of my favourite series right now.

[flamika.livejournal.com]

I check repeatedly after a post a fic to Livejournal or a mailing list. Though I often try to post right before I go to sleep in order to avoid this habit.

[demeter918.livejournal.com]

*EG* I haven't posted at a mailing list in over a year... and I finally did it again with "Hurdle to End". XD

[trixie-chick.livejournal.com]

heh, i'm the opposite. i get compulsive. i check back frequently, obsessively. it's worse when i post on boards that keep track of views. then i check almost immediately to see how many people are reading.

it is normal, tho. i think. i mean, i like to post at the end of the night, too, so people have time to respond (if they will). *is way too obsessive*

i want love mode and bronze now. *pouts*

[demeter918.livejournal.com]

Sakura-Crisis (http://www.sakura-crisis.net). Awesome, awesome site. And it has most of "Love Mode" available for download plus a number of gorgeous manga, both shoujo and boys love. XD

[morphaileffect.livejournal.com]

ahaha, well... i post and run, most of the time. i check back every 12 hours or so, but this isn't routine. can't stay away from the net too long, even if checking comments to my fics makes me nervous... i just think i'm losing out on the great fics the people on my friends list are writing. so while i check my friends list, i take a peek if anyone's commented >3

dude. ozaki minami <3 i fell in love with zetsuai when i first saw it. in original japanese yet, since translations were unavailable to me at the time ^^; bronze... is superior art-wise, and some parts are really more intense, but it deviated from the charming naivete and frequent doses of humor that made zetsuai dear to my heart. i ramble. i should stop XD

love mode is also a treat and a half. the scans going around are masterfully translated. at least the version i was able to read, which was from... hmm... i can't seem to recall. was it sakura-crisis?

[demeter918.livejournal.com]

It's been a long while since I read Zetsui (five years?) and when I saw V.1-10 of Bronze in the bookstore, all the old feelings came rushing back. XD Am ready now to go hunting for BL manga when I get to Taiwan this summer.

And yep! I got my scans from Sakura-crisis. They're not perfect of course, but the translation is decent and the scans are excellent quality!

[rondaview.livejournal.com]

!!! Funny thing that you should post about it, because I've found one of the most curious things about myself is that I do just that. Ahh, you really hit it on the nail; it's been one of those things nagging at me lately, esp. recently. But yes, oh god, I run. Do I run. I post a fic and then I disappear for, like, two days. But what you said about 'not caring' - I kinda sorta agree, but I think it's more of a, you write for yourself, but @ the same time when you've put a lot effort into a fic you really want other people to like it as much as you do, and it does sting a little when you come back and no one's said much. :x

But I think for me it's also an accumulation thing, as in, well, if I check back every other minute, I'd feel that sting of disappointment every time I refresh and it's still comment-less, whereas if I check back in a day and there's a glut of comments waiting for me to read = OMGYAY!!1 ....well, that's my line of reasoning. >___o So, um, thanks for posting your thoughts, 'cause it really happened to coincide with mine.

The real point of this comment would be me asking if you minded my adding you? Because jeez, that Sakura-fic a few entries back = genius.

[demeter918.livejournal.com]

I don't mind not getting reviews or comments, but I still avoid it like hell because it's an odd reaction. XD And I'm very odd.

*blush* Thank you! I'm still always surprised when I find out people actually like my fics. I tend to write about the female characters quite a bit, so I always get giddy !!! when people like the fics involving them. *adds you*