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demeter918It's kind of long, but not half as long as I want it to be. More later!
How did I get into Relena? It's a long history, filled with gaps in my memory, but sharp points that I can pin as points that stand out clearly are several distinct moments. First, when Relena cries to the empty air about her father; trust me, I could relate very well. Second, when she nearly breaks down in her adoptive mother’s arms, saying "You'll always be my mother", knowing very well, that nothing could ever be the same again. A third moment involved her meeting Treize and defiantly looking him in the eye – strength plays to me heart. A fourth was her standing, wrapped in her brother's arms, and she has to wonder whether the arms holding her are those of Milliardo Peacecraft or Zechs Merquise.
There are moments like when she wonders if Heero is her 'little prince'. For those who didn't get it, was a reference to Antoine de Saint-Exupéry's, "The Little Prince". Yeah, it was kind of obscure, but useful when realizing the context.
Or when she refuses to accompany Hilde back to Libra, even though she knows she'll see Heero there, and even Hilde tells her that. That alone discounts every single bit of evidence that Relena would rather stalk Heero than pay attention to peace. And it just completely negates the idea that only she follows him around. He is very much a stalker also. ^_^
So many tend to forget that she is only a fifteen year old girl who lost nearly her entire family when she was but a child. People scoff at her pain, at her loss, because they think it's trivial compared to the pilots. But then they essentially trivialize every single other person's pain too. The pain of Catherine letting her brother go off to war. The pain of Mrs. Darlian at the knowledge that she's literally lost both her husband and daughter. Notice the trend? Yeah. A good portion of the fandom is misogynistic to an extreme degree, and that helped a great deal in riling my senses.
But returning to Relena. ^^
That moment she gives up the Sanq kingdom - people call her a coward – I call that one of the bravest acts ever. It's far easier to say "go on fighting" when there are other people to fight for you, than to give yourself up to the enemy in order to preserve lives. All certain fans see is that she gave up. They don't look into her reasons, her courage, and her despair – Heero, Quatre, Noin, her people would have perished if she had not chosen to give up. Remember that.
Then there was that moment as she gazes into the mirror as the people bustle around her, dressing her up like a doll, as their Queen of the World. I felt such pity for her then, because sometimes things move so quickly and unbearably that there's just a moment for bewilderment before forcing yourself to walk forward.
Then there's the arguments that don't make much sense to me. Relena's ugly, Relena's a bitch, Relena's selfish, Relena's inconsiderate, Relena's rich, Relena's flat-chested, Relena wears too much pink, Relena's a klutz, Relena's stupid.... So on and so forth. Let me ask; if these are reasons to hate someone, then what the hell is wrong with this world?
Now, let's calm down. *drinks some water* Or rather, let me calm down. -_-
One particular problem with how Relena's presented is the GW fandom itself. Don't take me wrong; much of the fandom (oh, alright, perhaps one-fourth) is very cool, but it's the other three-fourths that ruin it. There was a time I would have argued for Relena and Heero, but I realized I much preferred Relena in her glory, and not having to depend on some man to prop up her personality. But looking at the fandom, that's literally impossible. There is so few just-Relena fics. They connect her with one person or another, and while generally that’s fine, there are times I have wistful feelings for something more. *sigh* Yeah. It's silly.
The fandom has many a misogynist. Let's just get that out in the beginning. These are women who hate women because they're 1) expressed as the possible love interest of their favourite guy or 2) they're in the path (as said above) of the one true love between two others, usually two guys. They call it 'openness' because they support yaoi and slash. However, it's not mentioned that they often bash yuri, femmeslash, and women in general. I hate misogyny with a virulent passion. I will never understand how anyone could do it... but then I could, because it's often white, heterosexual, middle-class women who have the ability and privilege to be on the internet, write fanfiction, buy anime, and create websites. Racist, am I? Perhaps, in a way. But there's no denying the 'whiteness' of America. But that is a rant that is not entirely connected to Relena, so I'll leave it at that.
So...
I'm essentially separating them by author, so if you're not interested in one, you can skip a chunk until the next one. ^_^
Bleeding Hearts by Flamika
Technically, it's not a Relena/Wufei fic... but um, I would see it, because I love it and though I've just complained about romance and such, I still melt with 5XR fics. Relena suffers, the same as anyone, as any HUMAN (she isn't some monster who would rather Duo die than be with Heero) would. She takes a walk into the seething underbelly of a seedy bar... It’s not so much the hint (very tiny, really) of romance as much as their conversation, and how it just makes me sigh and wonder how anyone could think of Relena as unfeeling' and 'wholly selfish'. I say wholly, because hey, we're ALL a little selfish.
Phantom in the Office by Flamika
This is absolutely lovely. People who haven't suffered unrequited love really shouldn't bash someone who may have. And Relena here is a great example of someone who’s trying to put it behind her, who's trying not to be petty and rude to Duo, though how anyone can expect her to treat the man who's destroyed one of her dreams with smiles and gestures is beyond me. "Get over it?" I haven’t gotten over my own first crush, and I feel it's perfectly alright. But later, someday, I'll expand on that aspect of myself.
Year of the Dragon by Flamika
I can't spoil the ending, because it's everything, so I won't. Let’s just say that I read this before "Bleeding Hearts" and it converted me into a full-on Relena/Wufei fan. The possible nuances and intricacies of their relationship are written here; what happens at the end will stun at least half of you. I cried buckets when I finished. And I still 'resent' Flamika for doing what she did. *wink*
Flamika also writes under the pseudonym, Catalina. You can connect to Diebus Fatalis and Lost Atlantis from there. For those who have kept track of my ramblings, you’ll know Catalina writes (um, Flamika too... argh!) my favourite Yuffie/Vincent fic, EVER. It's called "Sink to the Bottom With You"... and I love it. Enough said. In other notes: she writes mostly 1X2 fanfics. I haven’t read them (but that's because I’ve developed an aversion to 1X2 in general... though there are exceptions) but for 1X2 fans out there – go check it out!
Sainan no Kekka ("Tragedy's Consequence" or "Aftermath") by Quicksilver and Gerald Tarrant
One of those epic Gundam Wing fanfics, but very much different. It's on a different wavelength, and though there is certainly some romance, the best thing is that it's nowhere near focused on it at all. It's about people, about the Gundam Pilots, about 'what if?' People take the aspect of the boys being pilots too lightly; it is a death sentence in many cases. Why would anyone admire someone for killing or destroying a colony? We feel love and admiration for them, because we're supposed to see the bigger picture, but in true form of the word; they're terrorists. They killed for a cause. And in any rule of law, those who kill must be punished. But that's strictly a one-way POV. Which is where SnK comes in. These two authors brought the world (and beyond) to life post-series. Now, why Relena? Because one of their things is 'devillainizing Relena', and though I often feel that it's useless, I have to admire their effort. She's very human, very great in this fic. She makes mistakes, but often, there are just as many committed toward her. She wants to love, but is often rebuffed; first by her brother, then by Heero, and on and on and on. And for anyone who is character-specific fan, there are good sections for nearly all major characters. There are OC's, but they’re not in any way grating... though some of you may hate/pity Atsuki later on. It's LONG, so be warned. ^_^ And they have songs for every part! Very useful in determining mood.
In the Silence by Jen
Another Wufei/Relena, but different...? There are times I’m tempted to beautify Relena, to make her into this beautiful, holy, ethereal figure who does no wrong, but I know that's wrong. This starts with that... and then strikes a lot of them down. Kind of ironic and funny, even though it’s angst and romance at the same time. And it's very good to see Relena realize she's grown up past Heero and that she sees him nothing more than a good friend... and he to her. Something I wish I could do. *growls*
Beck's fics
AH! She's still one of the few writers I'll read a 1XR lemon (or otherwise 1XR in general). I still read "Big Man with a Big Gun" and shiver with delight and giggles. I came into GW a virgin and left... well, technically still a virgin, but only in the most basic of the sense of the word. *grin* It says something when you know almost as much as you know about 'stuff', but you still haven't actually 'done it'. Yeah, I'm crass today. Read "Do it in the Road". You'll be surprised. Hentai GW rules!
Gabrielle Moonbeam's fics
Lots of yuri, and nearly all between Relena/Dorothy and Relena/Hilde. I especially like "Fingers Slip Slip with a Flip" and "Just to Make her Stronger". "Little Kitty" is very, very odd, but I just wanted to twirl around the room dreamily, holding my computer (>_<) as I imagined orchestral music playing in the background. It's awesome stuff.
A Darkening Dawn by Ancient Lady
Relena and Heero are on the run after something goes wrong in the world, and they're suddenly alone in enemy territory. They must reach safety (where the Preventers are located), and along the way... Okay, to be honest, the 1XR part deters me now, but when I first read it a long while back, I adored it. I still do, because the plot is excellent. The Relena here is strong and vital; not weak and whiny.
Peace by Ashura
Not a Relena-fic, but I have the occasional favourite fic that's not Relena, you know. ^_^ This is a friendship-fic between Dorothy and Catherine. Though... it could be more. It just could be. XD I find Dorothy excellent here – while I adore fics that involve her searching for her way, it was a comic touch to have Quatre throw a rope around her waist and drag her places. *grin* It's so HIM to forgive someone who stabbed him through the stomach with a rapier. -_-
Tangled by Ashura
Sort of like a RFO (Relena-Finds-Out), but not really. The most amazing part is that Relena is obviously in much pain, but she's not in turmoil, which I think is great. She's not conflicted about what she should do, but it doesn't negate the fact that her choice is paining her in many, many ways. She isn't hesitant to send Heero on his way to Duo, but she's not going to just pretend that she doesn't love Heero any less. Very astute and still a favourite of mine.
Terpsichore by Ashura
This is an odd little fic, because it provides a simple relationship between Duo and Dorothy, but in no way sexual or romantic. But they are united in one goal – waiting for their respective partners to wake up and realize that Heero for Relena and Relena for Heero are no longer ideals. It's an interesting take on the usual Duo-watches-Heero and Dorothy-watches-Relena plotline. I feel real sympathy for the two... and Relena, because this 'love' for her is slowly making her unsubstantial.
Versohnung by Ashura
Sort of like a Relena-Finds-Out, but one that is obviously better than the ones that reduce Relena to a whining pile of dog-crap. I have trouble comprehending sometimes just why people think Relena would hire assassins to kill Duo, kill Duo herself, whine, start shrieking, throw knives at Duo, dig Duo’s eyes out, force herself... well, you get the idea. This is one of those things that make me giddy with delight and then cry later because it's really terrible to think that she's the one losing out, and still yet, so many snicker at and snidely say she deserves it. *fumes* But lovely story; very much advised for all Relena-fans. *cackles*
Ashura's done a good deal of series that I like - "Whither Goest Thou Arcadia" is, unfortunately, unavailable at the moment, because of stupid ff.net and the fact that her GW site got crapped on by the net. She's got all her one-shots back up, but the series will still take a little bit of time. If any of you are into 1X2, 3X4, etc. etc – many other fics. *grin* I’ve read most of them, when I was still into 1X2, and they’re VERY good. A fave series? "Long Lost", which involves a neat little plotline about Quatre and Relena. *grin* It’ll stagger your mind to read – but I won't say anything other than Relena and Quatre are ____. "Niobe's Violets" isn’t Relena-centric at all, but it does include her, and a sweet plotline that'll satisfy all you fantasy schmucks out there. XD
Test Tubes, Dragon Spawn, and Demi-Gods by Ashura, Orla, and Fablespinner
This was like The Epic at the highest crest of GW fandom. It's long and lovely. It’s not exactly focused on Relena, since she’s sort of almost like a saintly figure here, married to Heero with two kids, and loved by all. But I like her. And it doesn't hurt that it has one of the more convincing 2nd generation fanfics out there. There are several parts that I’ve reread over and over, because I just can't get them out of my head. *grin* A subplot involves Dorothy and her children, and I love how human she is. Another one involves Lady Une, Zechs, and Trowa – I can't say more than that, though those who have read it will know perfectly what part I mean. I have the entire section almost memorized" "Was it enough, Treize-sama?" *sniffles* I loved Lady Une too, too much in this story. There is a sequel, but it’s not done yet.
I have to say first, I was hesitant to suggest GW Addiction, because it's a bit notorious for some of seriously twisted fics. And not in the good way. Relena is hated by a lot of these authors, and a couple of them are writers who go way back, to the YYH era, and it hurts me to know that these excellent writers can't seem to see why Relena should be respected, even if they can't admire her. And there are a number of malepreg fics that I absolutely abhor. The worst thing is that they’re serious. But the number of gems among rocks here are worth shifting through the archive. Nightmares later, but hey, payment is necessary.
Lilia's GW Fanfics
Lilias has the honour of writing one of my absolute favourite arcs – the Complicated Arc. And it really is complicated. *cheeky grin* There are sections that are absolutely BEAUTIFUL and deserve much slobbering and love. One indication of my love is that I actually printed out one of her stories; I almost never do that, because I pretty much think that's a huge waste. It’s a 1XRX2XRX1X2X1 (^^) fic, but don't let that turn you off. It's so much more than just their relationship. Relena's part is lovely, and I still adore it. Read: "Complicated" – Part 7 and 8 closely. You'll just stop breathing. "Fade to Black" is not Relena-centric in the conventional sense, but after reading it, you'll get the sense that damn, she's fucking too important to stick in a 'fifty ways to kill Relena' fic. *grin*
Triangle by Nixers and Kywcksylver
Okay, this is not definitely not a story for the blessed!Relena fans. I'm one of those, but I tend to like her flawed because I love to see how her humanity and person can be tested. (Angst!) Relena isn't exactly what I would see her, but she's very much a girl in love desperately, and doesn't quite know how to extricate herself from that love. It's not entirely the Relena I advocate, but it's written so well and with a bit of sympathy. Most Relena-fans will have a hard time reading this; I know I did. I had to stop several times to breathe deeply and brood before continuing. The ending is a bit ambiguous, and the point was somewhat lost, because they set aside her pain, her suffering, for Duo's. It’s unsatisfying that it only shows one person's pain, since it somewhat reduces the other to a convenient side point, and we’re left to our own devices in how to 'judge' her. Still, it's well-written. Worth a try.
Draco's GW fanfics
Yuri central, particularly between Hilde and Relena. There's some beautiful stuff here, and I would suggest "Cellar Door", "Wings", "The Ashes Stir", and "End of the Day".
Dan Wilde's GW fanfics
The one who really got me into yuri fics in the first place. I absolutely adore the D/R fics centered here, but there's a rare 1XHX2 fic. I don't see those at all, and this one was well-written and something special, because it included Wufei and Relena in a prominent role. XD "Fly Away, White Bird" is freaking ethereal. There’s no other word for it. "Need Some Distraction" puts Relena in one of her best roles ever – independent, and supportive. And we get bits and pieces that leads you to wonder at the implications (like her fear of closed spaces). It’s focused around Hilde and her unsettling new relationship with Duo and Heero, but we get a nice little section for Dorothy too, that makes you want to slap Quatre. Hard. "Halcyon" is a secretive favourite – I have a sneaking thought that pushing her when she’s only fifteen, into the role of Queen, of peace, is as cruel as choosing five boys to command the fate of the colonies; it's just in a different fashion. There's no possibility of measuring them against each other. And so Relena finds herself. One of my favourites genres. "Lorelai" reverses roles, and for once, we see Relena in a role normally reserved for Dorothy. Everyone assumes it's Dorothy who's fallen for Relena's angel-like beauty, but maybe it's Relena who couldn't resist the laughing eyes and long hair. READ "Here With Me". It’s not about Relena, technically, but it could mean that it's all about her. Dorothy tries – and succeeds? – in dealing with a tragic event. "Of Wolf and Man" is one of the most interesting supernatural GW fics yet. And it's focused around Relena. Yay! I swear, one more story involving the boys and vampires (it's true!) and I would shoot someone. ^_^ Oh, and read the ‘rants’ – it's hilarious.
Reflections by Charli
Relena-pov, and one of those rare stories that I’m not gagging at the sweet romance. Relena gets a chance to deal without a very precious sense; it gives everyone a chance to feelings out without the trouble or accusations or perhaps, perfecting the art of running away. XD It won an award at the Nanashi Fanfic Contest – and it really deserved it.
Caramel Baby by Imo-chan
It's a Relena/Wufei fic, but they get on each other’s nerves. In the story, Duo and Heero are like Relena's guards, fiercely protective of her and with each other (one of the few, few instances I've seen of this). They need to accompany Lady Une and Marimeia to a colony to set up a new Preventers Base; it was only to be a short assignment but due to the hostilities toward Marimeia, they’re forced to stay longer to ensure that she’s not hurt. (On a side note, the one-line mentioning this sparked an idea for me, and I'm currently working on it). So Wufei is there. On and on and on... hee hee. Unfortunately, it's not finished at three parts, and I haven’t seen anything new lately, so... *sigh*
Kristen Elizabeth
She's mostly a future generation's writer, and though I like those, once in a while, you get tired of all the family drama. But the Relena here is very nicely-done. And she focuses much on her, which is interesting, since she does include nearly all the other characters. But it always comes back to Relena. ^___^"Upon a Knife's Point" is very much a second generation fic, but one of the better ones. One of the daughters of Duo and Hilde just makes me cringe with delight. She's the sort of woman you hate, but you can't help but love and pity. *smothers with kisses* So yeah. Not technically a Relena fic. "Wherever You Are", "Out of the Blue", "Broken Road", "A Friendly Proposition", are sort of all Relena-centric, but kind of... not? Hard to explain; but if you're into het and Relena (especially Relena/Heero or Relena/Duo, you'll love these fics. Honest) Kristen Elizabeth rekindled some of my love for Relena/Heero, after dying eons ago. Made me go back and read some other fics, including those by Nem – ah. GW fandom had it's very good points.
Gundam Wing/Waltz Fanfics by Jaelle and Orla
Angst isn't much of a player in their fics; but they admit that proudly, and I absolutely die with laughter whenever I happen upon their stories. It's GW on acid or something. *grin* And I love their version of Zechs for some reason. He's so beyond angsting, that he's sort of accidentally the most hilarious character. Even though he shouldn't be... ^_^ “Candy Candy Gundam Wing” has always been a favourite of mine, especially because we see sweet stuff used for something other than food. *grin* Even if it's not exactly what we think it would be. *cackle* “I've Never” is a rendition of the infamous drinking game. However, what comes out nearly made me pee my pants the first time I read it. Probably because that was one of my first experiences with that drinking game. Yes, I'm a young 'un. “An Orange Christmas” is actually a sidefic to the “Test Tubes, Dragon Spawn, and Demi-Gods”. Hilarious one-liners that deserve a mark in history. Hee hee. And it brings back some signature moves, like Trowa’s triple back-flip. I love, love that part. *beams* “A Toast to the Bride and Groom” and “Vegas Cocktail” are both comedic fics, and the titles are explanations in themselves. *eg* Now to my favourite of all their fics: “Kimi no Koto wa Itsudemo Mamoru” and “Memory and Future” are two stories linked by the same events. So; it deals with alternate pairings. But it’s not as crazy at it sounds once you actually read it. I love Relena in here. Just that image of her throwing a ‘hissy fit’ after Heero and Hilde tell her _____, I couldn't help but cry, because I could just imagine her sobbing her heart out later on. *sigh* Perfect for Relena-angst fans. The sequel is “Memory and Future” and deals much with Relena and ____. *grin* Can’t spoil EVERYTHING, can I?
Nemkess
I think Nem was one of the first true Relena-authors I read out there. She was on the scene when anti-Relena-ness was near the crest, where it seemed that everybody hated her, and those who did like her were obviously morons. So it was like finding a spring after wandering through the desert. Helps that she doesn’t completely worship Heero, even though she has a shrine to him. She can see him fit for role of villain, and lord, how she does it. *Bwa ha ha ha* “The 2XR Songfic Series” demonstrates this VERY well. “Future's Trilogy” is something for the Relena-fans who don’t want her to end up with anyone until she’s able to see herself in the mirror. I adore it because it was one of the first times I saw Relena as a maturing woman rather than the child. “Sins Trilogy” is actually Catherine-centric, but didn’t I say I was a fan of the women of GW? And I am – this deals with the little-spoken ‘what if?’. Surprisingly, in all the time I’ve spent in GW fandom, and reading tons of fics, I have yet to bump into one that deals with incest like “Sins” does. Indeed – what if Trowa was Catherine’s brother and what if they didn’t know it? It shows Catherin’s discovery, her despair, and her decision. And it shows the strength of why women are better than men (in a purely sexist statement; cause it is). Now, “Where Have All the Cowboys Gone?” is my absolute FAVOURITE of Nem’s fics. Surprised? Sometimes I am. It’s completely Dorothy-centric, and it makes anyone want to slap Quatre with a large hammer. “A One Night Stand” is about Relena and Catherine drowning their sorrows in a night on the town – why can’t women go have alcohol? Why are they automatically seen as drunkards the moment they decide they need a drop too? *bares teeth* So I love this fic. “A Trilogy” and “A Day at the Park” are both worthy readings – but the second part of the trilogy, dealing with Duo’s reaction to a tragic event, is beautiful – “It’s better to be gone but not forgotten, then forgotten, but not gone.” *shivers* Hell yeah.
Wardove's fics
She has, um, a lot of fics. But a strong emphasis on Relena/Heero. (I can’t seem to escape them, can I?) But her fics are very cool – they deal with a whole trove of Relena’s, and even if I sometimes can’t help but giggle helplessly, it’s because the lemons are hot, and hot lemons make me smile giddily like a schoolgirl just out of a convent. So – “Dark Princess” will please those who don’t want prissy, beautiful, perfect Relena in their stories. *grin* But you may be taken back by the cold-hearted… um… word that is above PG. “Wufei vs Relena” is so not what you think it would be… but… *giggles madly* Hee hee. I can’t help but like it, even if it’s one of the more bizarre threesomes you can think of. Seriously – if you like GW, you should read all her fics. And to be slightly off-topic, she has a Sess/Rin kick! These two are my favourite couple of Inuyasha, and seriously, they do not get enough respect.
Sefilin’s fics
“Role Reversal” is… kind of an alternate universe-fic. Sort of. Basically, the world’s switched around, and only the Duo’s change minds, but not bodies. It’s very interesting, because Relena and Duo switch roles, and she’s Relena Maxwell, and he’s Julian Peacecraft. Yeah, Julian. Freaked me out too, when I first read it. Relena’s slightly disappointing at parts, since I don’t think she’s obsessive at all (cause if you call her obsessive, then literally, you’d have to call the pilots the same too, especially Heero and Wufei). The story depends on the fact that she’s only obsessive in certain situations, and isn’t normally like that. I don’t like that too much, but the story’s too good to let it pass for that small point. Nice thing? You get to see what Relena might have been like if she had been a pilot. Kind of like a female version of Duo, but without the maniac personality. The real Relena also has the advantage of knowing weaponry with the added plus that she chooses to never utilize that knowledge, because ‘life is too precious’, which was an awesome line. “To Possess the World” is basically a post-GW world, between the ending of the series and the movie. It’s the slow (very slow) development of a relationship between Relena and Duo based on friendship. It’s told almost entirely from Duo’s POV, and it’s absolutely lovely, lovely. “Snap”, Waiting on a Promise”, and “Prevention or Cure” are all Duo/Relena stories, and pretty standard fare. If you’re a fan of the couple, you’ll definitely enjoy them, but if either makes you gag, *sigh* you won’t like it. Though how anyone could like Relena and Duo together is beyond me. *grin* “Intimate Hostility” is a Duo/Dorothy fic, which is enough to shock most of you. Anyone who remembers my jaunt in the GW fandom will remember a 2XD fic I wrote called “Bring it On”. *grin* Yes, this couple is one of the rarest in the fandom; but with a following of perverse fans. ^_^
Like Mother, Like Daughter by Demeter
You knew I was going to rec my own. ^_^ I wrote many Relena-centric stories, but this is one that I particularly take pride in. It was one of those stories that spawned from a discussion with a friend (Beckymarie). I have since lost contact with her (it happens a lot with me; I’m just no good at that), but I still give her the credit for sparking the idea in me. Relena’s adoptive mother virtually disappears from the series once Relena finds out the truth about her birth, and she’s neither seen nor mentioned again. I was a little disappointed, because I felt such sympathy for her for losing her husband first, and then essentially losing her daughter. =( I was very happy with the ending too. Hee hee. So, um, read.
War and Pacifism by Demeter
It was a little maudlin, in retrospect, but hey, I can’t help it. I was an angsting high schooler when I wrote it. ^_^ However, at the core, it’s still very much what I believe. Relena doesn’t need Heero or anyone else in the world – what she needs is self-confidence and the heart to know that what she’s doing is right (or at least, he belief of what’s right). Her belief and faith in peace is all that stands between her and death.
There are SO many more fics than need to be put out, but I figured I had enough for one post. So I’ll do more in another!
With lots of love,
Demeter
Just a small chunk of the pro-Relena fics I know are somewhere out there. These are the ones I remember most, though. ^_^
Enjoy!
How did I get into Relena? It's a long history, filled with gaps in my memory, but sharp points that I can pin as points that stand out clearly are several distinct moments. First, when Relena cries to the empty air about her father; trust me, I could relate very well. Second, when she nearly breaks down in her adoptive mother’s arms, saying "You'll always be my mother", knowing very well, that nothing could ever be the same again. A third moment involved her meeting Treize and defiantly looking him in the eye – strength plays to me heart. A fourth was her standing, wrapped in her brother's arms, and she has to wonder whether the arms holding her are those of Milliardo Peacecraft or Zechs Merquise.
There are moments like when she wonders if Heero is her 'little prince'. For those who didn't get it, was a reference to Antoine de Saint-Exupéry's, "The Little Prince". Yeah, it was kind of obscure, but useful when realizing the context.
Or when she refuses to accompany Hilde back to Libra, even though she knows she'll see Heero there, and even Hilde tells her that. That alone discounts every single bit of evidence that Relena would rather stalk Heero than pay attention to peace. And it just completely negates the idea that only she follows him around. He is very much a stalker also. ^_^
So many tend to forget that she is only a fifteen year old girl who lost nearly her entire family when she was but a child. People scoff at her pain, at her loss, because they think it's trivial compared to the pilots. But then they essentially trivialize every single other person's pain too. The pain of Catherine letting her brother go off to war. The pain of Mrs. Darlian at the knowledge that she's literally lost both her husband and daughter. Notice the trend? Yeah. A good portion of the fandom is misogynistic to an extreme degree, and that helped a great deal in riling my senses.
But returning to Relena. ^^
That moment she gives up the Sanq kingdom - people call her a coward – I call that one of the bravest acts ever. It's far easier to say "go on fighting" when there are other people to fight for you, than to give yourself up to the enemy in order to preserve lives. All certain fans see is that she gave up. They don't look into her reasons, her courage, and her despair – Heero, Quatre, Noin, her people would have perished if she had not chosen to give up. Remember that.
Then there was that moment as she gazes into the mirror as the people bustle around her, dressing her up like a doll, as their Queen of the World. I felt such pity for her then, because sometimes things move so quickly and unbearably that there's just a moment for bewilderment before forcing yourself to walk forward.
Then there's the arguments that don't make much sense to me. Relena's ugly, Relena's a bitch, Relena's selfish, Relena's inconsiderate, Relena's rich, Relena's flat-chested, Relena wears too much pink, Relena's a klutz, Relena's stupid.... So on and so forth. Let me ask; if these are reasons to hate someone, then what the hell is wrong with this world?
Now, let's calm down. *drinks some water* Or rather, let me calm down. -_-
One particular problem with how Relena's presented is the GW fandom itself. Don't take me wrong; much of the fandom (oh, alright, perhaps one-fourth) is very cool, but it's the other three-fourths that ruin it. There was a time I would have argued for Relena and Heero, but I realized I much preferred Relena in her glory, and not having to depend on some man to prop up her personality. But looking at the fandom, that's literally impossible. There is so few just-Relena fics. They connect her with one person or another, and while generally that’s fine, there are times I have wistful feelings for something more. *sigh* Yeah. It's silly.
The fandom has many a misogynist. Let's just get that out in the beginning. These are women who hate women because they're 1) expressed as the possible love interest of their favourite guy or 2) they're in the path (as said above) of the one true love between two others, usually two guys. They call it 'openness' because they support yaoi and slash. However, it's not mentioned that they often bash yuri, femmeslash, and women in general. I hate misogyny with a virulent passion. I will never understand how anyone could do it... but then I could, because it's often white, heterosexual, middle-class women who have the ability and privilege to be on the internet, write fanfiction, buy anime, and create websites. Racist, am I? Perhaps, in a way. But there's no denying the 'whiteness' of America. But that is a rant that is not entirely connected to Relena, so I'll leave it at that.
So...
I'm essentially separating them by author, so if you're not interested in one, you can skip a chunk until the next one. ^_^
Bleeding Hearts by Flamika
Technically, it's not a Relena/Wufei fic... but um, I would see it, because I love it and though I've just complained about romance and such, I still melt with 5XR fics. Relena suffers, the same as anyone, as any HUMAN (she isn't some monster who would rather Duo die than be with Heero) would. She takes a walk into the seething underbelly of a seedy bar... It’s not so much the hint (very tiny, really) of romance as much as their conversation, and how it just makes me sigh and wonder how anyone could think of Relena as unfeeling' and 'wholly selfish'. I say wholly, because hey, we're ALL a little selfish.
Phantom in the Office by Flamika
This is absolutely lovely. People who haven't suffered unrequited love really shouldn't bash someone who may have. And Relena here is a great example of someone who’s trying to put it behind her, who's trying not to be petty and rude to Duo, though how anyone can expect her to treat the man who's destroyed one of her dreams with smiles and gestures is beyond me. "Get over it?" I haven’t gotten over my own first crush, and I feel it's perfectly alright. But later, someday, I'll expand on that aspect of myself.
Year of the Dragon by Flamika
I can't spoil the ending, because it's everything, so I won't. Let’s just say that I read this before "Bleeding Hearts" and it converted me into a full-on Relena/Wufei fan. The possible nuances and intricacies of their relationship are written here; what happens at the end will stun at least half of you. I cried buckets when I finished. And I still 'resent' Flamika for doing what she did. *wink*
Flamika also writes under the pseudonym, Catalina. You can connect to Diebus Fatalis and Lost Atlantis from there. For those who have kept track of my ramblings, you’ll know Catalina writes (um, Flamika too... argh!) my favourite Yuffie/Vincent fic, EVER. It's called "Sink to the Bottom With You"... and I love it. Enough said. In other notes: she writes mostly 1X2 fanfics. I haven’t read them (but that's because I’ve developed an aversion to 1X2 in general... though there are exceptions) but for 1X2 fans out there – go check it out!
Sainan no Kekka ("Tragedy's Consequence" or "Aftermath") by Quicksilver and Gerald Tarrant
One of those epic Gundam Wing fanfics, but very much different. It's on a different wavelength, and though there is certainly some romance, the best thing is that it's nowhere near focused on it at all. It's about people, about the Gundam Pilots, about 'what if?' People take the aspect of the boys being pilots too lightly; it is a death sentence in many cases. Why would anyone admire someone for killing or destroying a colony? We feel love and admiration for them, because we're supposed to see the bigger picture, but in true form of the word; they're terrorists. They killed for a cause. And in any rule of law, those who kill must be punished. But that's strictly a one-way POV. Which is where SnK comes in. These two authors brought the world (and beyond) to life post-series. Now, why Relena? Because one of their things is 'devillainizing Relena', and though I often feel that it's useless, I have to admire their effort. She's very human, very great in this fic. She makes mistakes, but often, there are just as many committed toward her. She wants to love, but is often rebuffed; first by her brother, then by Heero, and on and on and on. And for anyone who is character-specific fan, there are good sections for nearly all major characters. There are OC's, but they’re not in any way grating... though some of you may hate/pity Atsuki later on. It's LONG, so be warned. ^_^ And they have songs for every part! Very useful in determining mood.
In the Silence by Jen
Another Wufei/Relena, but different...? There are times I’m tempted to beautify Relena, to make her into this beautiful, holy, ethereal figure who does no wrong, but I know that's wrong. This starts with that... and then strikes a lot of them down. Kind of ironic and funny, even though it’s angst and romance at the same time. And it's very good to see Relena realize she's grown up past Heero and that she sees him nothing more than a good friend... and he to her. Something I wish I could do. *growls*
Beck's fics
AH! She's still one of the few writers I'll read a 1XR lemon (or otherwise 1XR in general). I still read "Big Man with a Big Gun" and shiver with delight and giggles. I came into GW a virgin and left... well, technically still a virgin, but only in the most basic of the sense of the word. *grin* It says something when you know almost as much as you know about 'stuff', but you still haven't actually 'done it'. Yeah, I'm crass today. Read "Do it in the Road". You'll be surprised. Hentai GW rules!
Gabrielle Moonbeam's fics
Lots of yuri, and nearly all between Relena/Dorothy and Relena/Hilde. I especially like "Fingers Slip Slip with a Flip" and "Just to Make her Stronger". "Little Kitty" is very, very odd, but I just wanted to twirl around the room dreamily, holding my computer (>_<) as I imagined orchestral music playing in the background. It's awesome stuff.
A Darkening Dawn by Ancient Lady
Relena and Heero are on the run after something goes wrong in the world, and they're suddenly alone in enemy territory. They must reach safety (where the Preventers are located), and along the way... Okay, to be honest, the 1XR part deters me now, but when I first read it a long while back, I adored it. I still do, because the plot is excellent. The Relena here is strong and vital; not weak and whiny.
Peace by Ashura
Not a Relena-fic, but I have the occasional favourite fic that's not Relena, you know. ^_^ This is a friendship-fic between Dorothy and Catherine. Though... it could be more. It just could be. XD I find Dorothy excellent here – while I adore fics that involve her searching for her way, it was a comic touch to have Quatre throw a rope around her waist and drag her places. *grin* It's so HIM to forgive someone who stabbed him through the stomach with a rapier. -_-
Tangled by Ashura
Sort of like a RFO (Relena-Finds-Out), but not really. The most amazing part is that Relena is obviously in much pain, but she's not in turmoil, which I think is great. She's not conflicted about what she should do, but it doesn't negate the fact that her choice is paining her in many, many ways. She isn't hesitant to send Heero on his way to Duo, but she's not going to just pretend that she doesn't love Heero any less. Very astute and still a favourite of mine.
Terpsichore by Ashura
This is an odd little fic, because it provides a simple relationship between Duo and Dorothy, but in no way sexual or romantic. But they are united in one goal – waiting for their respective partners to wake up and realize that Heero for Relena and Relena for Heero are no longer ideals. It's an interesting take on the usual Duo-watches-Heero and Dorothy-watches-Relena plotline. I feel real sympathy for the two... and Relena, because this 'love' for her is slowly making her unsubstantial.
Versohnung by Ashura
Sort of like a Relena-Finds-Out, but one that is obviously better than the ones that reduce Relena to a whining pile of dog-crap. I have trouble comprehending sometimes just why people think Relena would hire assassins to kill Duo, kill Duo herself, whine, start shrieking, throw knives at Duo, dig Duo’s eyes out, force herself... well, you get the idea. This is one of those things that make me giddy with delight and then cry later because it's really terrible to think that she's the one losing out, and still yet, so many snicker at and snidely say she deserves it. *fumes* But lovely story; very much advised for all Relena-fans. *cackles*
Ashura's done a good deal of series that I like - "Whither Goest Thou Arcadia" is, unfortunately, unavailable at the moment, because of stupid ff.net and the fact that her GW site got crapped on by the net. She's got all her one-shots back up, but the series will still take a little bit of time. If any of you are into 1X2, 3X4, etc. etc – many other fics. *grin* I’ve read most of them, when I was still into 1X2, and they’re VERY good. A fave series? "Long Lost", which involves a neat little plotline about Quatre and Relena. *grin* It’ll stagger your mind to read – but I won't say anything other than Relena and Quatre are ____. "Niobe's Violets" isn’t Relena-centric at all, but it does include her, and a sweet plotline that'll satisfy all you fantasy schmucks out there. XD
Test Tubes, Dragon Spawn, and Demi-Gods by Ashura, Orla, and Fablespinner
This was like The Epic at the highest crest of GW fandom. It's long and lovely. It’s not exactly focused on Relena, since she’s sort of almost like a saintly figure here, married to Heero with two kids, and loved by all. But I like her. And it doesn't hurt that it has one of the more convincing 2nd generation fanfics out there. There are several parts that I’ve reread over and over, because I just can't get them out of my head. *grin* A subplot involves Dorothy and her children, and I love how human she is. Another one involves Lady Une, Zechs, and Trowa – I can't say more than that, though those who have read it will know perfectly what part I mean. I have the entire section almost memorized" "Was it enough, Treize-sama?" *sniffles* I loved Lady Une too, too much in this story. There is a sequel, but it’s not done yet.
I have to say first, I was hesitant to suggest GW Addiction, because it's a bit notorious for some of seriously twisted fics. And not in the good way. Relena is hated by a lot of these authors, and a couple of them are writers who go way back, to the YYH era, and it hurts me to know that these excellent writers can't seem to see why Relena should be respected, even if they can't admire her. And there are a number of malepreg fics that I absolutely abhor. The worst thing is that they’re serious. But the number of gems among rocks here are worth shifting through the archive. Nightmares later, but hey, payment is necessary.
Lilia's GW Fanfics
Lilias has the honour of writing one of my absolute favourite arcs – the Complicated Arc. And it really is complicated. *cheeky grin* There are sections that are absolutely BEAUTIFUL and deserve much slobbering and love. One indication of my love is that I actually printed out one of her stories; I almost never do that, because I pretty much think that's a huge waste. It’s a 1XRX2XRX1X2X1 (^^) fic, but don't let that turn you off. It's so much more than just their relationship. Relena's part is lovely, and I still adore it. Read: "Complicated" – Part 7 and 8 closely. You'll just stop breathing. "Fade to Black" is not Relena-centric in the conventional sense, but after reading it, you'll get the sense that damn, she's fucking too important to stick in a 'fifty ways to kill Relena' fic. *grin*
Triangle by Nixers and Kywcksylver
Okay, this is not definitely not a story for the blessed!Relena fans. I'm one of those, but I tend to like her flawed because I love to see how her humanity and person can be tested. (Angst!) Relena isn't exactly what I would see her, but she's very much a girl in love desperately, and doesn't quite know how to extricate herself from that love. It's not entirely the Relena I advocate, but it's written so well and with a bit of sympathy. Most Relena-fans will have a hard time reading this; I know I did. I had to stop several times to breathe deeply and brood before continuing. The ending is a bit ambiguous, and the point was somewhat lost, because they set aside her pain, her suffering, for Duo's. It’s unsatisfying that it only shows one person's pain, since it somewhat reduces the other to a convenient side point, and we’re left to our own devices in how to 'judge' her. Still, it's well-written. Worth a try.
Draco's GW fanfics
Yuri central, particularly between Hilde and Relena. There's some beautiful stuff here, and I would suggest "Cellar Door", "Wings", "The Ashes Stir", and "End of the Day".
Dan Wilde's GW fanfics
The one who really got me into yuri fics in the first place. I absolutely adore the D/R fics centered here, but there's a rare 1XHX2 fic. I don't see those at all, and this one was well-written and something special, because it included Wufei and Relena in a prominent role. XD "Fly Away, White Bird" is freaking ethereal. There’s no other word for it. "Need Some Distraction" puts Relena in one of her best roles ever – independent, and supportive. And we get bits and pieces that leads you to wonder at the implications (like her fear of closed spaces). It’s focused around Hilde and her unsettling new relationship with Duo and Heero, but we get a nice little section for Dorothy too, that makes you want to slap Quatre. Hard. "Halcyon" is a secretive favourite – I have a sneaking thought that pushing her when she’s only fifteen, into the role of Queen, of peace, is as cruel as choosing five boys to command the fate of the colonies; it's just in a different fashion. There's no possibility of measuring them against each other. And so Relena finds herself. One of my favourites genres. "Lorelai" reverses roles, and for once, we see Relena in a role normally reserved for Dorothy. Everyone assumes it's Dorothy who's fallen for Relena's angel-like beauty, but maybe it's Relena who couldn't resist the laughing eyes and long hair. READ "Here With Me". It’s not about Relena, technically, but it could mean that it's all about her. Dorothy tries – and succeeds? – in dealing with a tragic event. "Of Wolf and Man" is one of the most interesting supernatural GW fics yet. And it's focused around Relena. Yay! I swear, one more story involving the boys and vampires (it's true!) and I would shoot someone. ^_^ Oh, and read the ‘rants’ – it's hilarious.
Reflections by Charli
Relena-pov, and one of those rare stories that I’m not gagging at the sweet romance. Relena gets a chance to deal without a very precious sense; it gives everyone a chance to feelings out without the trouble or accusations or perhaps, perfecting the art of running away. XD It won an award at the Nanashi Fanfic Contest – and it really deserved it.
Caramel Baby by Imo-chan
It's a Relena/Wufei fic, but they get on each other’s nerves. In the story, Duo and Heero are like Relena's guards, fiercely protective of her and with each other (one of the few, few instances I've seen of this). They need to accompany Lady Une and Marimeia to a colony to set up a new Preventers Base; it was only to be a short assignment but due to the hostilities toward Marimeia, they’re forced to stay longer to ensure that she’s not hurt. (On a side note, the one-line mentioning this sparked an idea for me, and I'm currently working on it). So Wufei is there. On and on and on... hee hee. Unfortunately, it's not finished at three parts, and I haven’t seen anything new lately, so... *sigh*
Kristen Elizabeth
She's mostly a future generation's writer, and though I like those, once in a while, you get tired of all the family drama. But the Relena here is very nicely-done. And she focuses much on her, which is interesting, since she does include nearly all the other characters. But it always comes back to Relena. ^___^"Upon a Knife's Point" is very much a second generation fic, but one of the better ones. One of the daughters of Duo and Hilde just makes me cringe with delight. She's the sort of woman you hate, but you can't help but love and pity. *smothers with kisses* So yeah. Not technically a Relena fic. "Wherever You Are", "Out of the Blue", "Broken Road", "A Friendly Proposition", are sort of all Relena-centric, but kind of... not? Hard to explain; but if you're into het and Relena (especially Relena/Heero or Relena/Duo, you'll love these fics. Honest) Kristen Elizabeth rekindled some of my love for Relena/Heero, after dying eons ago. Made me go back and read some other fics, including those by Nem – ah. GW fandom had it's very good points.
Gundam Wing/Waltz Fanfics by Jaelle and Orla
Angst isn't much of a player in their fics; but they admit that proudly, and I absolutely die with laughter whenever I happen upon their stories. It's GW on acid or something. *grin* And I love their version of Zechs for some reason. He's so beyond angsting, that he's sort of accidentally the most hilarious character. Even though he shouldn't be... ^_^ “Candy Candy Gundam Wing” has always been a favourite of mine, especially because we see sweet stuff used for something other than food. *grin* Even if it's not exactly what we think it would be. *cackle* “I've Never” is a rendition of the infamous drinking game. However, what comes out nearly made me pee my pants the first time I read it. Probably because that was one of my first experiences with that drinking game. Yes, I'm a young 'un. “An Orange Christmas” is actually a sidefic to the “Test Tubes, Dragon Spawn, and Demi-Gods”. Hilarious one-liners that deserve a mark in history. Hee hee. And it brings back some signature moves, like Trowa’s triple back-flip. I love, love that part. *beams* “A Toast to the Bride and Groom” and “Vegas Cocktail” are both comedic fics, and the titles are explanations in themselves. *eg* Now to my favourite of all their fics: “Kimi no Koto wa Itsudemo Mamoru” and “Memory and Future” are two stories linked by the same events. So; it deals with alternate pairings. But it’s not as crazy at it sounds once you actually read it. I love Relena in here. Just that image of her throwing a ‘hissy fit’ after Heero and Hilde tell her _____, I couldn't help but cry, because I could just imagine her sobbing her heart out later on. *sigh* Perfect for Relena-angst fans. The sequel is “Memory and Future” and deals much with Relena and ____. *grin* Can’t spoil EVERYTHING, can I?
Nemkess
I think Nem was one of the first true Relena-authors I read out there. She was on the scene when anti-Relena-ness was near the crest, where it seemed that everybody hated her, and those who did like her were obviously morons. So it was like finding a spring after wandering through the desert. Helps that she doesn’t completely worship Heero, even though she has a shrine to him. She can see him fit for role of villain, and lord, how she does it. *Bwa ha ha ha* “The 2XR Songfic Series” demonstrates this VERY well. “Future's Trilogy” is something for the Relena-fans who don’t want her to end up with anyone until she’s able to see herself in the mirror. I adore it because it was one of the first times I saw Relena as a maturing woman rather than the child. “Sins Trilogy” is actually Catherine-centric, but didn’t I say I was a fan of the women of GW? And I am – this deals with the little-spoken ‘what if?’. Surprisingly, in all the time I’ve spent in GW fandom, and reading tons of fics, I have yet to bump into one that deals with incest like “Sins” does. Indeed – what if Trowa was Catherine’s brother and what if they didn’t know it? It shows Catherin’s discovery, her despair, and her decision. And it shows the strength of why women are better than men (in a purely sexist statement; cause it is). Now, “Where Have All the Cowboys Gone?” is my absolute FAVOURITE of Nem’s fics. Surprised? Sometimes I am. It’s completely Dorothy-centric, and it makes anyone want to slap Quatre with a large hammer. “A One Night Stand” is about Relena and Catherine drowning their sorrows in a night on the town – why can’t women go have alcohol? Why are they automatically seen as drunkards the moment they decide they need a drop too? *bares teeth* So I love this fic. “A Trilogy” and “A Day at the Park” are both worthy readings – but the second part of the trilogy, dealing with Duo’s reaction to a tragic event, is beautiful – “It’s better to be gone but not forgotten, then forgotten, but not gone.” *shivers* Hell yeah.
Wardove's fics
She has, um, a lot of fics. But a strong emphasis on Relena/Heero. (I can’t seem to escape them, can I?) But her fics are very cool – they deal with a whole trove of Relena’s, and even if I sometimes can’t help but giggle helplessly, it’s because the lemons are hot, and hot lemons make me smile giddily like a schoolgirl just out of a convent. So – “Dark Princess” will please those who don’t want prissy, beautiful, perfect Relena in their stories. *grin* But you may be taken back by the cold-hearted… um… word that is above PG. “Wufei vs Relena” is so not what you think it would be… but… *giggles madly* Hee hee. I can’t help but like it, even if it’s one of the more bizarre threesomes you can think of. Seriously – if you like GW, you should read all her fics. And to be slightly off-topic, she has a Sess/Rin kick! These two are my favourite couple of Inuyasha, and seriously, they do not get enough respect.
Sefilin’s fics
“Role Reversal” is… kind of an alternate universe-fic. Sort of. Basically, the world’s switched around, and only the Duo’s change minds, but not bodies. It’s very interesting, because Relena and Duo switch roles, and she’s Relena Maxwell, and he’s Julian Peacecraft. Yeah, Julian. Freaked me out too, when I first read it. Relena’s slightly disappointing at parts, since I don’t think she’s obsessive at all (cause if you call her obsessive, then literally, you’d have to call the pilots the same too, especially Heero and Wufei). The story depends on the fact that she’s only obsessive in certain situations, and isn’t normally like that. I don’t like that too much, but the story’s too good to let it pass for that small point. Nice thing? You get to see what Relena might have been like if she had been a pilot. Kind of like a female version of Duo, but without the maniac personality. The real Relena also has the advantage of knowing weaponry with the added plus that she chooses to never utilize that knowledge, because ‘life is too precious’, which was an awesome line. “To Possess the World” is basically a post-GW world, between the ending of the series and the movie. It’s the slow (very slow) development of a relationship between Relena and Duo based on friendship. It’s told almost entirely from Duo’s POV, and it’s absolutely lovely, lovely. “Snap”, Waiting on a Promise”, and “Prevention or Cure” are all Duo/Relena stories, and pretty standard fare. If you’re a fan of the couple, you’ll definitely enjoy them, but if either makes you gag, *sigh* you won’t like it. Though how anyone could like Relena and Duo together is beyond me. *grin* “Intimate Hostility” is a Duo/Dorothy fic, which is enough to shock most of you. Anyone who remembers my jaunt in the GW fandom will remember a 2XD fic I wrote called “Bring it On”. *grin* Yes, this couple is one of the rarest in the fandom; but with a following of perverse fans. ^_^
Like Mother, Like Daughter by Demeter
You knew I was going to rec my own. ^_^ I wrote many Relena-centric stories, but this is one that I particularly take pride in. It was one of those stories that spawned from a discussion with a friend (Beckymarie). I have since lost contact with her (it happens a lot with me; I’m just no good at that), but I still give her the credit for sparking the idea in me. Relena’s adoptive mother virtually disappears from the series once Relena finds out the truth about her birth, and she’s neither seen nor mentioned again. I was a little disappointed, because I felt such sympathy for her for losing her husband first, and then essentially losing her daughter. =( I was very happy with the ending too. Hee hee. So, um, read.
War and Pacifism by Demeter
It was a little maudlin, in retrospect, but hey, I can’t help it. I was an angsting high schooler when I wrote it. ^_^ However, at the core, it’s still very much what I believe. Relena doesn’t need Heero or anyone else in the world – what she needs is self-confidence and the heart to know that what she’s doing is right (or at least, he belief of what’s right). Her belief and faith in peace is all that stands between her and death.
There are SO many more fics than need to be put out, but I figured I had enough for one post. So I’ll do more in another!
With lots of love,
Demeter
Just a small chunk of the pro-Relena fics I know are somewhere out there. These are the ones I remember most, though. ^_^
Enjoy!
